I recommend 2x speed if you’re able to understand me still.

0:00 laying down, vertigo, 6:23am haven’t slept, neuroses
1:29 obsessive thought loop transition / detransition, affirmative model, truth about gender therapists
5:28 transitioned for dysphoria, vitiligo / autoimmune, hairy, laser hair removal
9:15 some thoughts of mine, not showering, amazon groceries, not detransitioning, become a monk
19:51 doubting transition, suffering, r/detrans, MtFtM, having kids, adoption
30:33 was going to marry someone, bad relationship, detransition
40:41 feelin’ good, easily influenced on computer, wearing girl’s clothes in high school, gay
45:16 i guess i don’t wanna detrans, gender, clothes, family connections & personalities, jealousy
1:03:50 i love being trans, fertility, hallucinations, relationships, bpd
1:19:50 betrayal and bpd, ramble, gay

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